Bred: A coming-of-age love story inspired by Great Expectations Read online

  CONTENTS

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Epilogue

  Acknowledgments

  Also By Ginger Scott

  About the Author

  Text copyright © 2019 Ginger Scott

  (Little Miss Write, LLC)

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  Ginger Scott

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  For my fellow “And, Or, Nor, But, Fors” – you know who you all are. And for the woman who taught us so well.

  “I have been bent and broken, but—I hope—into a better shape.”

  — Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

  CHAPTER 1

  “Lily! Make sure you run the brush through your hair! And hurry…we’re late!”

  I’ve brushed my hair six times, and my scalp burns from the sharp teeth of my comb. We’re always running late. Alice and Collin aren’t my parents. They aren’t really my aunt and uncle either, though that’s what we tell people. Alice was my mom’s cousin…like second or third? I don’t know how to count that stuff, but their grandmothers were sisters, so we’re whatever that makes us. They’re the only family my parents really talked to, at least about me and where I should go…if.

  Seven months ago, a police officer showed up while I was asleep on Alice and Collin’s couch, a ring of chocolate caked around my lips, and several empty cans of carbonated sugar left as evidence on the coffee table. My parents went to a show in the city, and this was how Alice and Collin babysat—they gave me all of the things my parents never would.

  They were young—still are…to have a thirteen-year-old, at least. Alice is twenty-seven, and Collin twenty-eight, and because Alice doesn’t want people thinking she had a baby when she was fourteen, she’s constantly telling people I’m not really hers. I don’t mind. They’re not really mine, either. We all just live together.

  With the water running in the sink, I pass my toothbrush underneath to soften the bristles and make Alice’s gross toothpaste a little weaker. I’m just about to spit the foam from my mouth into the sink when I feel the door push into my hip at my left.

  “Lily, we’re going to miss the train if we don’t leave right now,” Alice says, leaning across me to turn off the water. She makes eyes at me in the mirror, her silent reminder that I shouldn’t keep the water running. Water costs money. Sometimes I think it’s the only fact she really knows.

  “Spit,” she says, gesturing to the sink and reading a text on her phone. I do as she says and drop my brush in the cup, too nervous to turn the water back on to rinse it off.

  I wipe the extra paste from the corners of my lips with the hand towel just as Alice tugs at my sleeve. I don’t feel ready for whatever this “important opportunity” is. I don’t feel ready for lots of things, though, so I guess I’ll make the best of it. I do like riding the train, and at least we’ll be able to do that for an hour all the way into the city.

  We dash through the front door so quickly that my tulle, flowered skirt catches on the rotting doorframe wood, tearing the side of the fluffy part of my skirt up to my waist. The sound makes Alice pause, and her panicked eyes widen when they glance down to see the threads dangling along my knee.

  “Lily! You’re supposed to look nice. How are we going to fix that? We don’t have time…” She bunches her bangs in her fist and rests her knuckles heavily on her forehead. I can see the sweat forming, and I swallow my nerves.

  Alice is usually really nice. She’s bossy, especially about the water, but she’s nice. Ever since she got the call about a possible job at that rich, fancy lady’s house, though, she’s been…well…mean!

  “I’m sorry. I was trying to hurry,” I say, my bottom lip showing more of a tremble than I want. I gulp down air and wish away the sting of tears in my eyes. Alice does the same thing, her eyes falling to my feet as she draws in a heavy breath through her nose.

  “It’s fine. I’ll fix it on the train. Just…let’s go,” she says, turning and holding my wrist to keep me close.

  I have to take two steps for every one of hers, and I start to memorize the pattern my feet make between the cracks on the sidewalk.

  We get to the station just as the train is about to leave. Alice searches for our passes in her purse and lets go of my hand as we trample quickly up the steps. I slip a little, and my black tights snag at the knee. I cover it quickly with my palm, walking bent at the waist so I can keep the hole hidden until I sit down and can bunch up the material enough to hide it.

  Collin left for work early this morning. He’s a dishwasher at the Blue Bird, the only semi-nice restaurant in Heywood. I like it better when Collin rides the train with us, because Alice always takes the window, even if it means I have to sit somewhere else, by a stranger. There are only two window seats open today, and my tummy fills with dread as we get closer to the rows because I know Alice is going to give me the one facing other people.

  “Here, Lily.” She guides me into the first open spot, startling an older man with a wild-looking white beard and deep, red marks on his face. He was sleeping, I think. He grumbles when I slip through the space between his kneecaps and those of the man dressed in a business suit directly across from him. His dirty pants are torn near his feet, and his shoes lack laces. He smells like the bathrooms at Collin’s restaurant, and I’m so afraid he’s going to talk to me that I only look down, at the hole in my tights, or straight ahead at the man who looks like he’s about my dad’s age—or how old my dad would be. This man is gripping a newspaper, and he glances at me for a second without smiling before pulling the paper up higher to shield his face.

  “Lily, here. When he comes, hand him this…” I feel something lightly slapping at the top of my head, and I look up to see Alice’s hand and a worn-out transit card.

  “Okay,” I croak, taking it in my palm and clutching it against my body.

  As soon as the train begins to move, I set the card on my lap and lean forward, reaching to my ankle to pinch at my tights to bring more material to my knee. My mom taught me how to do this; I miss her a little doing it now.

  “Tickets!” I pat my card against my belly at the sound of the conductor making his way down our aisle. When he gets to our row, I expect him to have to throw my neighbor off at the next stop, but the man fishes inside
his front pocket and pulls out a bent card that’s nearly full of stamps. I hand him mine next and lean back as the man across from me leans in for his turn.

  I stare at the words scratched into the metal of the armrest for the remainder of the ride. Someone spelled the F-word wrong, leaving out the C. I wonder if it was Shay, whose name is carved near the end. Probably not—the writing looks different.

  Old homes give way to old buildings on the streets outside as we crawl closer to downtown Chicago. I know we’re getting close to our stop when I start to see people dressed in suits, and University sweatshirts. The trees outside still have their leaves, so when the train passes along the park, the shade dims the sun through my window where the reflection bounces off the lake. There are lots of boats out there today.

  When I see the sign for the museums, I move to the edge of my seat, ready for our exit, and I push past the smelly man next to me before we come to a complete stop. Alice’s hand is on my shoulder, gently pushing me to walk faster, and when I leap from the bottom step to the station platform, she nudges a little harder.

  “We’re late. Can you jog?” She starts to pick up her steps, so I do the same. We slow at the start of a deep-green iron fence that looks like a perfectly straight line of arrows jutting up from a garden. I pant loudly trying to catch my breath.

  Alice pushes a button above a mailbox that doesn’t match the enormous home gated behind it. The box has cracked paint and a red flag poking up high through some overgrown ivy, but I can’t imagine mail ever getting delivered here. The leaves have overgrown so much. Nobody answers, and the more seconds that pass, the more Alice’s hands touch her face and long brown hair. She runs her palms down her shirt and over her thighs a few times before huffing out “I knew we were going to be late…”

  Her eyes flit to my dress, the skirt still torn, and she sucks in a sharp breath, immediately kneeling in front of me and tugging the torn shreds together to tie in a bow at my waist. She jerks down on the remaining part of my skirt to make it look even, and starts to shake her head when she realizes it’s not going to work. I look silly with a bow anyhow. I’m an eighth-grader. I wanted to wear jeans, but Alice told me I had to look like we went to church. This dress is the only church-like thing I own. It’s three years old, and every stitch of it is juvenile.

  “This is a disaster,” she says, looking down between her knees to the sidewalk. I follow her line of sight to a thin row of ants trailing between her feet and mine. Some of them are carrying crumbs. Alice kicks at them as she stands, and I watch for a few extra seconds while they scatter.

  Alice pushes the button again the moment I look up, and this time, only a breath passes before a buzzing sound crackles through a speaker almost entirely swallowed up by ivy.

  The gate releases and begins to fall open, so I take a step forward. Alice halts me with her arm in front of my chest, though, quickly taking a few steps until she’s in front of me and staring me in the eyes.

  “This is really important, Lily. I need this job. We need this job. When you get inside, just find a place to sit that hides your dress. Please.” Her eyes plead with mine, and my skin burns.

  “I’m sorry I tore it…” I say, feeling the need to cry. Alice’s palm runs along my cheek just in time, and her other hand runs over my hair, tucking one of the golden curls behind my ear.

  “It’s not your fault,” she says through a heavy breath. Her mouth curves in an almost-smile before she stands and reaches for my hand. We haven’t held hands since I was little, but I take her palm in mine now and lock our fingers tightly. I don’t want to be here.

  She climbs up the brownstone’s steps first, her hand slipping from mine, and I trail a level or two behind. The sound of the door unlocking clicks loudly, and the first thing I notice as the towering iron and glass door swings open is the heavy chain that swings at the door’s edge. My eyes move to the woman standing in the open space next.

  “Ma’am,” Alice says, taking a bow with one of her feet behind the other. I watch her carefully and try to do the same, holding my skirt out to my side with my fist gripping at the ripped spot. We both look awkward, and the woman stares at us briefly, a tiny, unimpressed dent between her brow and a sour curve to her lips.

  “Come in…you’re late and I only have a few minutes…” The woman walks away with the door open behind her, and Alice looks down and back to me, where my feet feel like magnets clinging to a metal floor.

  She gives me a crooked grin and lifts her eyebrows before heading inside. My feet somehow follow, but my heart starts to pound loudly the deeper we get into this woman’s house.

  Some kind of piano music is playing throughout the house, echoing from somewhere; it reminds me of the haunted house I refused to go inside—at that amusement park I went to with my parents just before they died.

  Alice and I follow the woman down a long hallway that seems to split this house into two halves. None of the lights are on, and the farther inside we get, the more the darkness makes the woman look like a witch. She’s wearing a long black dress that touches the floor where her heels click against polished wood. Her sleeves are long, and the neck of the dress is high, like those turtlenecks Alice made me wear when I first came to live with them. Those shirts choked me.

  “Who are you?”

  I gasp when a boy who looks to be about my age steps from one of the rooms along the never-ending hallway and cuts off our path. My heart thumps inside my body and my stomach suddenly feels sick from the rush of being scared. My hands are clutched at my skirt, and I catch his eyes dipping down and noticing the rip in my dress. He smirks, then pops his gum, pushing his tongue through the center and blowing a giant pink bubble that hides his face from view.

  “Henry, can you show our guest to the music room? Her mother and I will only be a moment…”

  “Oh, I’m not her mother…” Alice begins, just as she always does—quick to correct people about our relationship. Her explanation trails off though when she’s met with an instant scowl. The woman who let us in is tall—somehow, she seems a full foot taller than Alice, and she tucks her chin into her neck slowly and lifts her right hand to slide her glasses to the tip of her nose. Her eyes move from Alice, to me, then back again.

  “I see,” she says, the tiny sentence dragging out with a sort of hiss. “Come on. Henry…the music room.” The woman continues her march down the hallway, and Alice stumbles a little to catch up to her, stopping just long enough to wave her hand low, urging me to go with the rude boy who smells of old bubblegum.

  My back is pressed against the wall so hard the chair rail is slicing into my shoulder blades. Henry, I suppose is his name, casually leans against the opposite wall and crosses his arms. I instantly notice the whiteness of his crisp dress shirt. His sleeves are rolled, and the gold and blue tie he’s wearing is knotted perfectly up close against his neck. My dad used to wear ties like that; he said he’d learned to tie them from my grandfather.

  “You wanna see the piano?” A blonde wave of hair slips down across his forehead as he nods toward a room behind me. He’s my height, but so many things about him seem so much older. He reminds me of the high schoolers that live on our block, the ones that sit on the corner to smoke and throw rocks at the stop sign late at night.

  “Sure,” I say, moving an inch or two away from the wall. I roll my shoulders back to make my chest look bigger—so I feel older, like I belong here.

  Henry stares at me for a second then laughs, but only on one side of his mouth. Instantly, my hands fold together nervously at my waist.

  “Come on,” he says, nodding his head in a way that says “follow me.”

  He draws open a pair of pocket doors that slide into either side of the wall and open up to a room that makes me dizzy with its riches. Somehow, the wooden floors seem shinier in here. Floor-to-ceiling windows look out over the lake, broken up only by floor-to-ceiling bookcases filled with a rainbow of book spines. My fingers are instinctively drawn forward to touch the
m, tracing the golden titles embossed on the sides. They look so old, yet also brand new.

  “You must read all the time,” I say with wonder, smiling with my back to Henry.

  “I hate books,” he says. I roll my eyes and groan a little louder than I intended, but before I can take it back, Henry picks up on it.

  “Let me guess…” he says. “You love reading, especially books about princes and princesses and love and all that shit.”

  My eyes flare. It’s not that I’ve never heard someone my age swear. I hear it all the time at school. I mean, I grew up near Chicago! My dad always said we used the best adjectives in this city. It’s more that Henry and I only just met. And I don’t know…maybe it’s also the way he’s dressed and the way his hair is combed away from his eyes, minus that one strand, and how he suddenly smells less like gum and more like aftershave. I feel like he’s supposed to be proper.

  He smirks at me again, seeing my surprise. I’m embarrassed by it. I must seem like such a baby to him.

  “Actually, I love reading about adventure. And thrillers. Something about getting inside the mind of a killer.” I hate thrillers really, but I wanted to shock him—that’s why I said it.

  “That’s sick,” he says, twisting his lips at me with disinterest.